~T R U S T~
Trust is a scary thing. Growing up I spent a lot of time hiding from people. Making friends and getting close to people meant being open and honest about my past, and my pain. The risk was just too high; in my mind trusting someone with so much of myself only opened up the possibility for more pain.
Telling my boyfriend about my mental illness was a huge step for me, even opening up to, and being honest with my friends comes with difficulties. But what I have learned is that the risk is worth it. Because people will surprise you. There are so many people, just waiting to help you - waiting to love you - and all you have to do is let them.
And it can be hard, I know, because not everyone knows how to handle your pain. But for those who genuinely try - and you will be able to tell who is genuinely trying - don't push them away. Don't be so afraid to let people love you.
At the end of the day they may not have the perfect words to say in a moment of crisis. But simply having a friend to call, having someone to hug you while you cry, having someone who understands your need to sit in silence and breathe, those friends count for so much.
And there are people who want to be there for you. There is always someone willing to be there if you let them. To be honest, most people won't be able to carry you. But you will find that having someone to hold your hand and walk next to you is enough.